2014…. if I could sum it up in one word it would be THRILL.
I have grown this year more than I have grown any other year. I don't know if you are like me, but I
feel as if I say this every year. I hope we can all say this every year and
mean it. This year I started out saying “This is my year, this is the year I am
going to shine” I started a blog, and when I started writing I discovered, I
have no f-ing idea what I am doing… Why do I think people care about what I
have to say? The truth is, most of you probably don’t care what I have to say,
I am 24, and I have not accomplished anything in my life worth writing about. I
just thought this would be something I could tell my kids one day “Kids I use
to have a blog”. Honestly, I probably should have started a personal diary. I
did not start it because I thought I was a profound writer, because many of you
have seen my typos. However, this blog has really helped me grow. I have never
been one for vulnerability, but I opened up to the few that follow my blog, and
it has helped me become one with my own skin.
I was such a prick at the beginning of the year. I was probably
a prick before that, I just didn’t realize I was a prick until then. I was so
stressed, and wound up so tight it is comical looking back now. I think my
prickness was really just a cover up for my insecurities. All I did was whine
all the damn time about inevitable truths. Throughout the year I think I
finally grasped the concept of letting go. I have to admit, letting go has to
be the most liberating concept. After I learned how to let go, everything in
life instantly became fun. I learned how to enjoy the imperfections of life.
Not only enjoy, now I appreciate every beautiful disaster of life. I learned
how to cope with losing people, I learned how to let people in. I grew
spiritually, and I feel as if for the FIRST time in my life my soul is
happy.
The thrilling part of this year are the many roller-coaster
rides I have been on this year, from seeing marriages coming together, to
falling a part. Self-proclaiming myself as "The White Beyonce’". From
witnessing life grow inside my sister, to almost losing my beloved
BoomPah (Grandpa). To hearing numerous lies about the taste of Kale.And in the midst of everything, I have fallen in love for
the very first time in my life, and I have to say.... Why the hell was I so
scared of this?
This year has been simply amazing, and I want to
thank the audience that I have, because all of our various conversations and
late night realizations have transformed me... I know I have been slacking on
the blog, but I would really like to turn this into something big. This is my
last blog for the year, but I think next year, I'm going to switch it up on
everyone, and hit you guys with something that will BLOW YOUR MIND. Because next year, I do not want to be in the same place I am this year. Enjoy the
rest of the year, I wish everyone Happy and Blessed Holidays!!!!
You're
homework this holiday season, is figuring out how to transform yourself next
year.
